I have struggled with weight issues my entire life, but at 6 foot tall, I have been able to "hide" my weight gain easier than most women. In fact, many of my friends and family would be surprised to find that I weighed that much. I have been slowly gaining weight since college. I've probably gained a dress size every year. I have been too embarrassed to admit to any number for so long, but no more, because now I want to brag about how much I have lost!
I had gotten to the point where I was twice as heavy as I was in high school. I still have a very long way to go, but I am committed to this and I actually feel like I can do it. This is a lifestyle change, not a diet for me. It's not been too hard for me so far, and I've been losing pretty fast, but I know that the weight loss will slow down soon. Still, I have no plans to stop. I keep thinking about what I looked like in high school. I'm not sure I will ever be that skinny again, but if I could get within 30 pounds of that, I would be happy.
By the way, I did weight watchers around 6th grade, then there was my skinny period from about 7th grade to senior year of high school. And I thought I was fat the whole time. My friends were all short and tiny, so I compared my dress size to theirs. Not really fair to me. I wish I would have known how skinny and good I looked back then so I could have enjoyed it (and maybe kept that weight!).
So this is prom my junior year. I'm the hot number in the super short black dress. I'm guessing none of my friends will be too upset about me posting this pic because we all looked pretty good (albeit in circa 1993 prom dresses). Yeah...I thought I was overweight and had no self-esteem back then.
So that is the goal. Well, maybe not the real goal, but the dream goal. I still have that dress! And wouldn't I just love to get back into that one day! I'm not really thinking that far ahead yet. Right now I'm hoping to have lost 50 pounds total by June. If I were to keep up my current rate of weight loss, I would be close to 60 pounds by then. Another 30 pounds by the time I'm wearing shorts exclusively would be great. I know I haven't been under 250 for several years.
Keep me in your thoughts and prayers! I'm sure there will come some pretty down moments for me before I reach my goal. Luckily, I'm not doing this to be skinny, I'm doing it for my health. Being thinner is just a bonus!
2 comments:
30lbs is amazing! I've been doing this crazy diet/exercise thing since the first of the year and haven't lost even a portion of that. My sister keeps urging me to try WW and I think I might need to.
Also, that picture of your is gorgeous! Isn't it funny how our self perceptions can be so off sometimes? I remember weighing less than a hundred pounds in high school and still feeling fat.
This post sounds exactly like something I just wrote. Trying to battle the weight issue too. It's not fun but so rewarding when the pounds start coming off. Glad I found your blog!
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